The Monkey On My Back

It’s more like a gorilla, to be honest. The thing that sits on my shoulders like the proverbial devil, and whispers thoughts into my consciousness and influences my mood and emotions – won’t go away. It has a firm grip on me. It is my master. I am helpless to it’s instructions no matter howContinue reading “The Monkey On My Back”

Responsibility

Where does self accountability and responsibility for oneself begin and end? How much belongs to others? It revolves around free will or choice, I believe, but a good portion of our choices are motivated by conditioning or come from the subconscious which in turn may be influenced by our genetics. Those aspects of ourselves areContinue reading “Responsibility”

Paying Attention

I’m familiar with mindfulness techniques but they always sounded sappy and ineffectual; diluted. Being a hot sauce, dump-the-whole-box-on-it person, I never gave them any serious thought. Mindfulness – the word – even sounds feel-goody. But I’ve changed my mind due to some recent moments of clarity. I’ve noted a connection between mindfulness exercises, mental habit-breakingContinue reading “Paying Attention”

Like Broken Glass

I feel fragile right now; transparent and easily cracked. Like a well-engineered glass sculpture or building that has been compromised, I need to close temporarily for repairs. Less than a week ago, radicalized Trump supporters overran our nation’s Capitol and threatened our Democracy like we haven’t seen in our lifetimes – nor have our Grandparents.Continue reading “Like Broken Glass”

The Imposter Is Me

Remember how, at the end of the movie The Sixth Sense, Bruce Willis finds out he’s been dead all along? Can you imagine the shock of finding out something about yourself that is a total game changer? I had an epiphany yesterday. I realized for the first time in my life that I am anContinue reading “The Imposter Is Me”

Lockdown

The lockdown is a new concept for most people because of the pandemic. I read a lot of stories about the depression, suicide, and boredom that seem to accompany social isolation and I think I know (kind of) what’s wrong with me. Wrong – that word insinuates that I’m broken so let’s try again: “up”Continue reading “Lockdown”

The Less You Write The Less You Write

I think I’m beginning to get it. I’ve heard that the less you write, the less you write. I am/was/did/am going to write a fiction book on another blog. It’s a seat of your pants production and I lost my belt in the first third or so. I was spewing whatever came into my headContinue reading “The Less You Write The Less You Write”

Contents Under Pressure

I’ve been reading Eckhart Tolle lately and he talks about the pain body.  It’s basically a sort of being that is a part of you that feeds off of emotion. I find the concept plausible and fascinating and I like metaphors. My pain body is obese. It has plenty to eat. A whole smorgasbord, openContinue reading “Contents Under Pressure”

Symbols and Metaphors: The Universal Language

We’ve all seen the signs: the ones on the bathroom doors you can’t mistake. This one for Heifers and that one for Bulls or the ever-present stick figure with or without a skirt. They’re symbols anyone can look at and understand, no matter the nationality or age. Without words, we can still communicate effectively withContinue reading “Symbols and Metaphors: The Universal Language”