Where does self accountability and responsibility for oneself begin and end? How much belongs to others? It revolves around free will or choice, I believe, but a good portion of our choices are motivated by conditioning or come from the subconscious which in turn may be influenced by our genetics. Those aspects of ourselves areContinue reading “Responsibility”
I feel fragile right now; transparent and easily cracked. Like a well-engineered glass sculpture or building that has been compromised, I need to close temporarily for repairs. Less than a week ago, radicalized Trump supporters overran our nation’s Capitol and threatened our Democracy like we haven’t seen in our lifetimes – nor have our Grandparents.Continue reading “Like Broken Glass”
Remember how, at the end of the movie The Sixth Sense, Bruce Willis finds out he’s been dead all along? Can you imagine the shock of finding out something about yourself that is a total game changer? I had an epiphany yesterday. I realized for the first time in my life that I am anContinue reading “The Imposter Is Me”
The lockdown is a new concept for most people because of the pandemic. I read a lot of stories about the depression, suicide, and boredom that seem to accompany social isolation and I think I know (kind of) what’s wrong with me. Wrong – that word insinuates that I’m broken so let’s try again: “up”Continue reading “Lockdown”
I’ve been reading Eckhart Tolle lately and he talks about the pain body. It’s basically a sort of being that is a part of you that feeds off of emotion. I find the concept plausible and fascinating and I like metaphors. My pain body is obese. It has plenty to eat. A whole smorgasbord, openContinue reading “Contents Under Pressure”
I saw you for the first time the other day – from the corner of my eye. So I’m not crazy – or am I? I couldn’t see you before because you lived behind my eyes but lately, I’ve been catching glimpses of you. Why can I see you only now if you’ve been hidingContinue reading “Erasure”
I’m in my fifties. If I was able to change, should I have been able to do so by now or is this it? It’s a harsh question to ask oneself but sometimes I do. I’ve been in counseling forever and I’ve engaged in cognitive behavioral therapy. I’ve tried methods I’ve learned from various professionalsContinue reading “Is This It?”
Seeing through the fog.
Don’t judge a book because it’s a coloring book.
Being my metaphorical self, I imagine a thought process or processes as, say, a rail yard. The idea is that there is a destination that is a belief, attitude or an emotion. The triggering event is the starting point at the edge of the mass of tracks and switches. The switches do the routing andContinue reading “Destination: Attitude”