I once told someone: “no one wakes up one day and says “‘I think I’ll fuck up my life’”. Do you know anyone who would voluntarily do that? I don’t. Sure, environmental influences figure in but give me a break: we are made up of the literal elements of the earth, we are subject toContinue reading “Chemicals And The Brain”
It’s more like a gorilla, to be honest. The thing that sits on my shoulders like the proverbial devil, and whispers thoughts into my consciousness and influences my mood and emotions – won’t go away. It has a firm grip on me. It is my master. I am helpless to it’s instructions no matter howContinue reading “The Monkey On My Back”
I feel fragile right now; transparent and easily cracked. Like a well-engineered glass sculpture or building that has been compromised, I need to close temporarily for repairs. Less than a week ago, radicalized Trump supporters overran our nation’s Capitol and threatened our Democracy like we haven’t seen in our lifetimes – nor have our Grandparents.Continue reading “Like Broken Glass”
Remember how, at the end of the movie The Sixth Sense, Bruce Willis finds out he’s been dead all along? Can you imagine the shock of finding out something about yourself that is a total game changer? I had an epiphany yesterday. I realized for the first time in my life that I am anContinue reading “The Imposter Is Me”
I’ve been reading Eckhart Tolle lately and he talks about the pain body. It’s basically a sort of being that is a part of you that feeds off of emotion. I find the concept plausible and fascinating and I like metaphors. My pain body is obese. It has plenty to eat. A whole smorgasbord, openContinue reading “Contents Under Pressure”
I’m in my fifties. If I was able to change, should I have been able to do so by now or is this it? It’s a harsh question to ask oneself but sometimes I do. I’ve been in counseling forever and I’ve engaged in cognitive behavioral therapy. I’ve tried methods I’ve learned from various professionalsContinue reading “Is This It?”
I stole this from my other blog.
Don’t judge a book because it’s a coloring book.
The process of elimination in treating depression and anxiety.
Just a diary entry